The First Month

It's been sort of rough. We haven't found our rhythm quite yet. The first two weeks were not great and then I had to go back to the hospital for a D&C as I had retained part of my placenta - I then had to have a blood transfusion partly due to the birth and partly due to the D&C. We had wonderful friends visit while we were back in the hospital and a ton of other wonderful friends make us food so we wouldn't need to cook for a while! The last two weeks have had ups and downs. Lilli does not like the bassinet so our sleeping arrangements have been a bit random. She also doesn't like pacifiers so no help there. The swing has been moderately successful but I think she sees it as entertainment more often then some place to fall asleep. Mostly she falls asleep while eating and I fall asleep while holding her before I can try and get her in the bassinet. Most recently the three of us have had colds to deal with - Dan got it worse than Lilli or I but we're all still a bit congested. We're at the point where Dan and I are desperately waiting for that first really big smile at one of us - maybe with some giggles - we're pretty worn down with crying and staring, at this point and are really praying for some genuine happy interaction. We know it will come but we are essentially in the boot camp of parenthood and just trying to get through every day in one, halfway sane, piece.